The silent killer !!!

Thoughts often entrap you in a shell, a shell you should come out of which but there is always a desire to think more and dig deep into them. You may wisely advice others not to think and divert mind and stuff, but when it comes to you, its always difficult to implement whatever you adviced. 


Often times it is not a single thing which causes this, its a plethora of stress elements which dominate your reasons to be content and happy. ( smile is often deceptive so dint mention here ).
The sudden anxiety and adrenaline you feel rushing through your veins is what troubles the most. It leaves in a state where you may think more and take steps you may not have taken, if not make you regret. 


The only cure to this is take compulsive actions for/against whatever you are thinking. Diverting mind via movies, work or songs doesn’t really work and if it does its ephemeral. You WOULD think of a mango if i ask you NOT to think of one.
Once you do something about it, you will feel lighter if not good and at the same time you now have a reason (your action) to be upset/influenced by the thought. Its human nature to be trapped in this vicious circle of chained reactions and this differentiates us from machines.

This process renders you in a state that can't be explained. You feel wierd, disconnected, non-lively etc. Everything seems totally negative and you can potentially argue over anything. If this goes on for a long time or the occurence of this behaviour is high people may regard you a pessimistic person and may infer you stupid. Randomly it can and does occur with anyone and everyone but the difference is when and how do you choose to express it.

Okay enough i can go on with this for forever, time to act though I may not...